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Doubt’s Gravity

I looked in a cave and saw spikes sticking up and down, made of rock like stone icicles hanging from the ceiling, and piles of upside down icicles sitting on the floor. An angel appeared beside me and asked if I wanted to look inside and find out more about these structures. I said yes, please show me more.

We walked inside and it was difficult to walk around because of the icicles on the floor. Once we were inside we found a clearing where we could see these structures all around us. The angel lit up the cavern and all the stone spikes gave the room a strange feeling.

“Do you want to know what these are?” The angel asked.

“What are they?” I responded.
He said “These are the structures of faith and fear and how they form under the influence of doubt. The hanging spikes are evidence of the children of God as they cling to God’s word. The spikes on the floor are evidence of the fears of Mankind. Both are growing larger.

I thought about the angel’s response for a moment and then asked “If the spikes on the ceiling are faith, then why are they getting bigger and moving down?”

He didn’t answer but motioned for me to follow him. He led me deeper inside the cave and the his light grew dimmer.

As we walked though, the light started becoming unnecessary because there was a new light shining from deeper inside the cave. When we turned to the left at the last crevice, the cave opened up and we found ourselves inside a much larger room where the rock was all white and instead of spikes hanging and sitting, there were much larger pillars all smooth and polished looking.

The angel spoke: “The spikes outside were formed by faith, as people cling desperately to the word of God, but are pulled down by the force of doubt. The spikes on the floor are formed by fear but they rise by the drawing power of God’s love. But in here, these pillars are formed out of a pure faith where doubt has no influence. These pillars also represent faith but since there is no doubt in the hearts of these, the pillars are able to grow in both directions without being deformed. The ceiling in here does not need the support of these pillars, nor do the pillars require the strength of their bond to the ceiling… or floor, but they exist together anyway as a testament to the unity between the Bride and the Lamb.”

Before I could ask any more questions, we were back outside in daylight.

The angel instructed once more “Doubt has been a powerful force but its influence is not supposed to exist in the Kingdom of Peace. You must convince the people to develop their faith to the extent that the laws of doubt are abolished here.”

Start here…” he said as he pulled out a round ball from inside his robe and held it out to me. As I reached for it, the ball became like a computer monitor and I could look inside it. I saw your face, but only part of it was there. Your one cheek and one eye were missing… not grotesquely, just… there was nothing at all, like part of the picture was gone. I kept looking but the angel told me I would not find the missing pieces here… I would need to learn to overcome doubt myself so I could teach you how to stop listening to doubt’s voice as well.

When I looked up again, I was transported to a sea and I had to tread water. As I waited there, I heard a voice speak again… it said only “Swim, you will not overcome by remaining still.”

Triumphant Trapeze

I saw a man with amazing muscular definition, an athlete with great strength and mobility. He was reaching out over the edge of a cliff and driving a strong iron rod into the rock of the side of the cliff. It seemed he was simply pushing the rod into the rock without boring a hole. Then he leapt over the cliff and with one arm grabbed a hold of that rod while he plunged other rods into the stone with his other arm.

The man was powerful, strong and graceful. He moved all over the side of the mountain face with ease, making his movement look like he was flying but he was simply swinging from rod to rod until the whole side of stone had rods planted solidly over the face like a giant set of monkey bars. I looked closer and saw etchings in each bar that read things like “Victory Over Addiction”, “Strength of Character”, “Awakened from Slumber” and “Distraction Destroyer”.

As he swung, I saw a spandex sash stretched across his chest with the title Prince of Peace on it. I watched him swinging from rod to rod… using his arms and knees to spin on each rod until he descended on the iron bars down to just above ground level where he caught hold of both your hands. Without interrupting his swing at all, he swung you up high into the air, flipping you into a mid-air somersault. Somehow, he flashed across two more bars and ended up hanging by his knees from a rod just above the peak of your launch and caught you again, before he placed your hands on the bars.

You were shocked, surprised and scared but then he grabbed hold of some of the rocky crags beside where you hung, looked straight in your eyes and smiling, he coaxed you “Let’s have some fun!

Together you started swinging from rod to rod; at first you were very cautious but when you saw that you never missed and He was always there to catch you, your flight became more fluid, confident and relaxed. Then you were both swinging back and forth off the rods like champion gold medal gymnasts.

As the picture panned out, I could see the side of the mountain beginning to light up with your movements until the whole section that had the rods shone like a beacon to the entire valley below. It was lit by the glory of the performance of you and the gymnastic Prince of Peace and all the inhabitants of the valley watched in wonder and were drawn to come closer.

When they all gathered at the base of the mountain you both swung down and you began to teach the crowds about having fun with God while the Prince simply stood beside you with his arm on your shoulder, smiling and laughing every now and then. Every person in the crowd was drinking from crystal glasses that were filled with water and clear wine, and everyone’s attention was riveted on your message.

Lost in a Wilderness

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Lonely mountains growing in a rocky wilderness rise up on all sides of a sullen orphan boy as he wanders aimlessly on a path through the dreariness. Everywhere he looks there are signs he has seen before and come to acknowledge as confirmations that he will always be lost.

But as the picture moves back and a larger view is shown, there is a harlequin using marionette paddles and strings to lift rocks and barriers into place all around this child. Behind the harlequin is a room full of brilliant gold items and stunning gemstones… but they are all hidden by the mountains and rocks the harlequin is moving around.

As the boy moves toward a brighter spot in the wilderness, the sinister puppeteer realizes the sheen from the gold and gems are illuminating part of the boy’s path so he takes one hand and spreads out his trench coat to cover the treasure’s light and stop it from shining on the despairing child’s false world.

Then a Hawk appears in the sky and begins circling the boy over the rocky scene. The harlequin shows frustration at its presence but is too busy working the marionette sticks to engage the hawk… although he tries with futility by waving the corners of his elbows in its direction. The hawk starts to swoop down around the boy who confuses this ally to be yet another dart in the barrage of discouragement, but the hawk is only after drawing the child’s attention. It lands on a large boulder directly in front of the boy and stares intently at him. Then when the child has lifted his gaze to question the strange countenance of the bird, the hawk suddenly grows 3 sizes and, digging its talons into the stone like it was paper mache, it takes off carrying the stone with it.

The harlequin is furious as the stone has left a gaping hole in the discouraging scene he has worked so hard to create but the boy is riveted at the treasure he sees through the new portal.

As he looks, the harlequin quickly pulls several strings and a bush, thick and thorny grows up before his eyes and covers the hole’s access entirely.

The hawk swoops down again to gain the boy’s attention and once it has his attention, the bird dive bombs another rock sending it hurling; again the rock resembles something ridiculously light, but it also exposes another hole. Before the hawk flies off this time, it grabs a bush some distance away from the stone it just smashed and now the boy is astonished seeing two holes in the firmament.

While the child begins running toward one of the holes, the harlequin – now furious – throws one of the marionette controls at the bird but this only results in 5 more holes showing up before the child and the boy slows his running down to peer into the new portals. He realizes quickly that all holes a showing him different angles of the same picture and for the first time he looks up and sees the deceptive puppeteer. With a questioning glance at the hawk the boy receives unspoken encouragement from the bird’s eyes and the child begins yelling accusations of protests at the harlequin who shrieks, turns and begins running. As he flees, the strings of all his scenery now reveal that they are attached to various parts of his body. With the flight of the deceptor goes all traces of the false wilderness the boy once found himself in. The child rushes in to the midst of all the jewels, gold and innumerable treasures making a dash for the one item that captures his heart: a gold and sapphire set of curved stairs leading to the highest point in the radiant scene. Running to the top, he stands boldly and holds out his hand toward the hawk… with the biggest smile spread wide upon the face of the child who once had no hope.

Flying away, the hawk finally calls back, speaking for the first time “Do not look to me, but to Him from whom I was sent.